jokerstar

re: frustrated

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Tue, 08 Dec 2009 22:11:32 GMT

dear world, you have thrown everything you have at me and I am still here. Yes I was recently a little frustrated at myself and you for my life sucking so hard. I have collected my thoughts and have a message for you in the words of my people. EAT A DICK, PISS OFF,and DONT LET THE DOOR HIT YA WHERE THE GOOD LORD SPLIT YA. ok i fell better

well now that thats over on with the me getting better and going out and dancing as soon as i can the world be damned it will be done

frustrated

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Tue, 08 Dec 2009 04:02:35 GMT

hello peoples i know i dont post alot ,but i need to get this out. I am so frustrated at the current state of things. any of you who know me should know that i hate people helping me at all. I can barely climb a flight of stairs without being out of breath. I am still in incredible amounts of pain.I cry uncontrolably about 4 or 5 times a day thats right a day. so im kinda miserable less than i was about a month ago but still totally in a deep dark hole i know there is nothing anyone can do i just need to vent and i fell this is the only place i can do it without people freaking the fuck out ohhhh i almost forgot on top of everything else.... wait for it. I may never be able to dance again. i mean i will just not like i used to i will prolly be able to pull of the white boy dance but thats it. so you can understand why im more than a lil upset well thats about it my life is filled with doctors apointments and me wondering if i will ever be the old devin again and there is this little voice in the back of my head that keeps getting louder and louder that says no he is dead and gone

i think im going crazy

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Mon, 31 Aug 2009 19:29:13 GMT

for a long long time i thought people just liked to talk shit about me when i was just within earshot or they got some twisted glee from making me fell like shit. time and time again i would distance myself from people that did this. i think i am alot more crazy than i ever thought i was. i thinkk i have been hearing voices tell me those things and i assumed it was the people around me. how many times have i cried alone in a bathroom or some other place away from prying eyes over these things i "heard" people say? horrible things, things you would not dare say or things i would never dare say to even someone i hated, and the worst part??? i fell totally helpless.

HUGZ

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Thu, 23 Jul 2009 23:13:44 GMT

anybody wanna come be my cuddle buddy?

ENOUGH

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Sat, 18 Jul 2009 19:50:44 GMT

i am so tired of girls that i fall in love with only seeing me as a form of income so i say enough no more love for me it can rot in hell for all i care

my brains are leaking

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Thu, 16 Jul 2009 08:47:44 GMT

i have been in a not so happy place emotionally for some time now and im not seeing a way out of this place i am in so this is just to say if i say or do something that seems out of place for me or if i just say or do things that dont quite fit what devin would normally do please try to over look it as much as you can guys im sorry for any inconvenience or unintended heart this may cause but im trying to work thru some stuff and well yeah im not really myself for good reason is being crazy a good reason to not be ones self but yeah im still in here somewhere and i still love all you guys im just having a internal conflict if you know me then this is not new info but yeah enough of my ramblings

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Sun, 19 Apr 2009 05:04:54 GMT

sorry guys i didnt mean to sound whiney is that how you spell that i totally fell loved

sorry again

disappointed

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Sat, 18 Apr 2009 15:01:52 GMT

so currently today 3 actual people wished me a happy birthday and 7 automated programs have wished me a happy birthday i think its kinda funny

and sad

OMFG

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Tue, 31 Mar 2009 00:03:15 GMT

so my sister liz that just got married like a year ago is pregnant so i will be a uncle talk about makin you fell old lolz

well thats funny

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Sat, 07 Feb 2009 17:43:22 GMT

I never thought i would ever know anyone long enough or for that matter be close enough to anyone to call them a bff but now i fell that has happened for more than one person and well it fells really good

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Thu, 23 Aug 2007 06:07:28 GMT

in awe

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Fri, 17 Aug 2007 20:16:13 GMT

sometimes i forget how great my friends are. so heres to you. i love you all for too many reasons to name. you guys rock my socks. thank you all for putting up with my crazy ass

much love to you all

ha ha

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Sat, 11 Aug 2007 16:34:11 GMT

now this is kinda funny

You scored as Satanism, You scored as Satanism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Satanism! Before you scream, do a bit of research on it. To be a Satanist, you don't actually have to believe in Satan. Satanism generally focuses upon the spiritual advancement of the self, rather than upon submission to a deity or a set of moral codes. Do some research if you immediately think of the satanic cult stereotype. Your beliefs may also resemble those of earth-based religions such as paganism.

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Satanism

95%

Agnosticism

75%

Paganism

70%

Hinduism

55%

Buddhism

55%

Haruhism

50%

Atheism

45%

Islam

35%

Christianity

25%

Confucianism

15%

Judaism

Which is the right religion for you? (new version)
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universe

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Sat, 04 Aug 2007 05:19:19 GMT

dear universe i need a house under 800 a month with 3 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms please i need this before i kill something

???

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Sat, 04 Aug 2007 03:39:40 GMT

not really a update more like a hmm thingy

i forgot how much i admire henry rollins

i think i just might be addicted to youtube

random thought

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Fri, 20 Jul 2007 14:59:33 GMT

either your capitalist or your christains figure it out already

HA

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Thu, 12 Jul 2007 15:51:06 GMT

this is pretty fragin funny i think

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You are The Tower

Ambition, fighting, war, courage. Destruction, danger, fall, ruin.

The Tower represents war, destruction, but also spiritual renewal. Plans are disrupted. Your views and ideas will change as a result.

The Tower is a card about war, a war between the structures of lies and the lightning flash of truth. The Tower stands for "false concepts and institutions that we take for real." You have been shaken up; blinded by a shocking revelation. It sometimes takes that to see a truth that one refuses to see. Or to bring down beliefs that are so well constructed. What's most important to remember is that the tearing down of this structure, however painful, makes room for something new to be built.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

huh thats funny

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Mon, 29 Jan 2007 04:47:24 GMT

You feel as if you have missed out on a great deal that life had to offer and you go about trying to make up for past failures. Naturally at times you get depressed and you try to compensate for your 'missed opportunities' by living your life to the full. This is what, perhaps, may be described as 'living with exaggerated intensity'. In this way you feel you can break the chains of the past and start again - and it could be that you are right.

You are working extremely hard trying to improve your image in the eyes of others. You are looking for acknowledgement from your peers and those who come into your sphere of influence. You want to be liked, not for what people think of you but for what you really are.

You are a very choosy person - demanding and exacting in your emotional demands and very particular in your choice of partner. You are self-sufficient and as a result of this overbearing nature you find it difficult to establish any depth of deep physical or mental involvement with members of the opposite sex.

You are holding back. You need to find friends in whom you can trust and once they have proved themselves beyond all possible doubt you will be prepared to give them your all. The existing situation is not of your liking - you have an unsatisfied need for mental stimulation with others whose standards are as high as your own. Trying to control your instincts the way you do restricts your ability to open up to others and the way you feel at this time is suggestive of 'total surrender'. This is not to your liking as you consider such thoughts as weaknesses that need to be overcome. You feel that only by control, controlling your innermost thoughts, are you able to maintain your air of superiority. You want to be admired for yourself alone and not for what you can do or for what you may have done. In essence 'you need to be needed' and at the same time 'you need to need'.

You really like doing what you do and, more than that, you like yourself. Your attitude to work and to life is that 'If its not fun - then don't do it'. You want to be liked and respected, not for who you are but for what you are - and it seems to be working.

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Thu, 11 Jan 2007 13:06:25 GMT

hmmm school school school it could be worse for dang sure its been better but i digress so far so good is the by word for the week and i hope the remainder of the semester i wish i had time to go to the fraking club or even go visit several people i know i should maybe after my little car is no longer sick yup oh yeah i might be a drama major soon so thats kewl i guess well i hope everyone is well and felling the joy of life i gots to get ready for class soooooo monkeeys, chickens, oh my god zombie mutant chickenmonkeeeeeeeeee ....

he he kidding

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Tue, 21 Nov 2006 22:18:25 GMT

happy turkey day

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Fri, 03 Nov 2006 13:15:22 GMT

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jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Thu, 26 Oct 2006 00:19:43 GMT

hmmm strangeness abounds good things: my roomies yummy yougert bad things: china,north korea

mental note to me buy more tiawainess goods andf less chinese goods

???

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Tue, 17 Oct 2006 03:38:20 GMT

am i really this cute???

hahaha

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Wed, 11 Oct 2006 18:41:26 GMT

you dirty scoundrels

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
jokerstar goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as the Joker.
brandyy gives you 1 blue cinnamon-flavoured pieces of bubblegum.
brokenmaiden gives you 2 red orange-flavoured gummy worms.
glass_girl gives you 3 mottled green watermelon-flavoured pieces of taffy.
ihvpave tricks you! You get a scratched CD.
jessamyn19 tricks you! You lose 5 pieces of candy!
l33tc4tch1x0r gives you 1 tan banana-flavoured nuggets.
missfroggirl tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy!
sarahphne tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy!
v_murder gives you 13 orange spearmint-flavoured pieces of taffy.
vudu gives you 15 green banana-flavoured nuggets.
jokerstar ends up with 28 pieces of candy, and a scratched CD.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.

URGENT!!!!!!!!!!

jokerstar_30@hotmail.com — Sun, 08 Oct 2006 21:18:28 GMT

remember remember the fifth of november